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End of an Era

6 years ago268 words

I had my last university commitment yesterday, meaning that this period of my life is now over.

It's not really sunk in fully, though. I just feel too tired and numb, I suppose. I've had to say goodbye to people I might never see and again, and it's sad... or at least it should be, but I suppose I've just been feeling disconnected. It's not a bad thing as such, just... not really anything.

The thing I had yesterday was a presentation about my dissertation. I think it went okay, though of course social anxiety means I've been cringing about little remembered or imagined things that obviously must have meant that people were judging me terribly even though it's more likely that nobody actually noticed or cared. So that's always fun to have to cope with. It's over now though, and I'm no longer a student. It's strange. I mean, I should really have reached this point years ago when people usually do, but I suppose better late than never? Hmm.

I've got some things I need to sort out, like where to go with my life from here, where to live from now on, things like that, and I've got a few things I've been wanting to write about here, creative projects I want to work on now that I've got the time. I've also got messages to send or reply to that I've been putting off for days, so I'd like to get around to those.

But I feel like I just need a proper rest first! I'll write something longer when I've recovered a bit.