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Brain scan update - Relief

3 years ago311 words

I finally heard back about how the brain scan I had like three weeks ago went. It found nothing to be concerned about, which is a huge relief!

I'm writing a brief blog post about it because I've been worrying for weeks about strange head sensations I've been having, and how they could very well be a return to the gauntlet of cancer treatment. The pressure feeling on my head, most notably; I had that years ago, then it went away after the surgery, and came back recently.

This provides proof that that's 'just' a result of anxiety. I mean it makes sense, and that's what I was expecting, but now it should be easier to avoid fretting over when it comes up in future.

So yes. Good! A huge relief! I've lost a day or so in anxious anticipation of bad news, unable to focus on anything else, so now I should... focus on something else! When I stop feeling disoriented from the wave of relief washing over me! Yes!

Oh, I also mentioned to whoever it was (a nurse or something?) who called me on the doctor's behalf (TOO BUSY FOR ME ARE YOU, also that's a relief because I find my new brain doctor off-puttingly arrogant, which is a shame because the previous one was really nice), uh... I mentioned my plummeting mental health to her, and how I saw someone once at the brain hospital about my mental health issues, did an interview etc and was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder, but then that didn't lead to anything. So I mentioned it again just since it seemed better than doing nothing. I'll just have to wait and see if it actually leads to anything.

Now to... probably just relax this evening, which I might actually be able to do for the first time in a long time!