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Dreamons, Insomnia, Nostalgia
7 months ago2,078 words
Some venting about recent sleep issues - likely a result of persistent life situation issues - and thoughts about my current game dev project, Dreamons, some old GBC Legend of Zelda games, and the Netflix adaptation of Avatar: The Last Airbender.
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36th Birthday
9 months ago903 words
I am now Level 36. As always, I don't like this!
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Counselling Course Conclusion?
9 months ago1,837 words
I had the fifth session of the Counselling Skills course yesterday. I left before it ended, and I'm unsure whether or not to continue with the other 10 sessions.
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Artists vs AI; Counselling Course Concerns
10 months ago1,140 words
While AI can produce high-quality art quickly, in my experience, art's value comes from the creation process, at least in the sense of personal pride. Also, I've been losing sleep over doubts about the social dice roll I'll be making next week...
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So What Now? (Greedy Unity, Life Milestones, Alien Mummies, Etc)
1 year ago2,380 words
Some noteworthy things have happened in the news recently! Not much has happened in my own life, though, due to a combination of taking time off, not being happy with where I am, and not knowing where I should go.
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Another Damn Depression Week
1 year ago2,016 words
YET AGAIN I'm caught up in lousy internal weather and haven't achieved as much as I'd like because of it. So frustrating. I suppose I composed a 16-minute-long piece of music, at least?? Don't know what I'm doing game-dev-wise these days, though...
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Horns, Hub, Indecisiveness, Burnout, DAWs?
1 year ago1,145 words
Did some Dreamons work this week, but mostly felt indecisive and burned out. Also, potential Patreon issue, and I should probably learn to use a DAW.
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Dreamons - Brainstorming a Formula
1 year ago2,735 words
Some thoughts regarding designing this project, Dreamons, around six areas that follow the same formula, with some ideas for each one that still need a lot more refining!
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Beliefrayth As Dreamons??
1 year ago2,284 words
Am I onto something with this idea that combines several different ones from the past few months?? Dreamons: A game in which you explore dreamscapes as a customisable avatar to tame humanoid - but with psychedelic aesthetics - dreamons to save people from their mental distress.
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Collecting Archetypes or Bonding With Characters?
1 year ago1,426 words
This... still unnamed side project thing is a game about converting and collecting people, but to what degree should they be unique people rather than collectible types? Should it be about collecting a silly gang of archetypes, or about finding your ~soulmate~??
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Hub and Spokes? Linear Progression?? Dreamons???
1 year ago1,439 words
What should I do with this game??
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Beliefrayth - Story Stuff & Men
1 year ago2,502 words
I'm on a roll with this still-yet-unnamed project thing - or at least as much as I have been with anything lately - so again I've shirked other work to at least make some progress on it. Less than ideal, but better than wasting all my hours lost numbly scrolling through Reddit and half-watching YouTube videos I'll forget as soon as they're done.
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What am I even doing with my time?
2 years ago2,099 words
Maybe I should do this instead??
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Weekly Update - Wondering About Dreamons Again, As A Pokemon Clone?
2 years ago1,775 words
While waiting on mental health treatment to prepare myself for putting myself out into online communities to promote Atonal Dreams, I've been wondering whether to work on Dreamons as a single-player Pokemon clone you can start a game of and just play within minutes without investing into some grand story...
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Weekly Update - AFC Retrospective, Dreamons?
2 years ago3,366 words
I've spent this week doing work on this side project which I'm tentatively calling Dreamons. I also revisited its predecessor, Alora Fane: Creation, for inspiration; it's such a tragedy I never widely released that! Maybe I finally should??
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Weekly Update - Getting Back into the Habit
2 years ago394 words
Nothing much to report this week, but I want to get back into the habit of posting these every weekend, so...!
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Weekly Update - A Follow-Up Re Atonal Dreams Box Art
2 years ago1,720 words
A second post this week with some thoughts about art I drew a few days ago, and the kind of feedback artists hope for when showing other people the fruits of their hard work.
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Weekly Update - CBC Port, Sequel? Still Depressed
2 years ago2,392 words
Another days-late post! Depression slump continues. Some thoughts about a CBC port or remake and rambling about computer crashes and cutscene 'games' I enjoy making for myself but doubt would appeal to others.
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Weekly Update (Sort Of) - Mish-Mash of Miscellaneous Musings
2 years ago2,227 words
My mind's been all over the place this week! Old games! Pokemon! Me-made new Pokemon clone?? CBC platformer sequel?? Random computer issues??? Nothing on Atonal Dreams though.
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Head Pressure, Continued; Several Stressful Factors
2 years ago1,284 words
For the second week in a row, this post's mostly just an excuse about how I've not achieved what I wanted to this week, due to general mental illness exacerbated by several situational stressors. Bleh.
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Weekly Update - Promotion Wariness, Wondering Whether To Focus On Porting Old Games
2 years ago1,327 words
This week, I made some Atonal Dreams improvements (mostly) based on feedback from the previous test, and intended to post about it on Reddit, but... am I too burned out? Should I focus on stuff like porting my old games first?? Am I just making up excuses to avoid doing something I have a strong trauma-related aversion towards???
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Scene Revisions, Money Woes
2 years ago2,179 words
Another busy week! But a talk with a friend - a rare thing for me - got me worrying about money and changing my life around again...
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Weekly Update - Another Slump, Composing Convenience Concerns
2 years ago909 words
Do you know anything about portable USB monitors??
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Weekly Update - Experimenting With The New Elements Via Belief V3
2 years ago3,038 words
Last week, I wrote about an idea I'd had for combining the elements and runes in Atonal Dreams, and how I'd been experimenting with a side project - essentially a remake of my old 'Belief' project from late 2019 - to get a feel for whether or not the change would work. I've spent this week working away at that project, so I want to talk about it a bit!
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Weekly Update - Should I Combine Elements And Runes Or Not?!?
2 years ago1,824 words
Inspiration is a double-edged sword! Should a seemingly good, new idea be pursued if it'd require some steps back to do so? Or should the current path be doggedly stuck to because that's the only way to reach the end??
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Weekly Update - Waiting for Alpha Feedback, Anxiously Procrastinating
2 years ago2,093 words
I've spent this week waiting for feedback for the Atonal Dreams Alpha... or rather, that feels like an excuse to shirk work more than anything, as I find the mere thought of the next big steps - or the alternative severe life changes if this won't work out - so distressing. I should try to play a game for the first time in ages to destress and reinspire myself, but I've been struggling to decide which one!
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Weekly Update - Mentales Week, Ports of Old Games?
2 years ago1,174 words
I've been working on Mentales this week! I'll likely also spend the next week on that, and I've been wondering again whether to make official ports of my old Flash games...
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Weekly Update - On Testing's Doorstep + Mentales
3 years ago1,776 words
I'm at the point with Atonal Dreams now where I can almost start the next round of alpha testing. I know I've been saying that for probably months, but while then it was on the horizon, now I'm standing on the doorstep. I've got badly burned out getting here, though, so I've also been recovering a bit by working on a side project, Mentales!
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Weekly Update - World Map & Intro Uncertainties
3 years ago1,653 words
I'm still going! Potion levels! Uncertainty about how to transition between the nightmare intro and Sprouting Isle, and how the world map should work! Chrono Cross remaster!
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Weekly Update - Buffs, Affinities
3 years ago2,374 words
I revised some stuff related to stat buffs and equipment this week!
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Weekly Update - Two New Battle Music Tracks, Blog Replacement?
3 years ago1,186 words
I composed two new pieces of battle music this week... which I can't show off due to technical issues with my composing program. I'm also wondering about other ways of talking about my progress that might be more noticed...
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A Frantic, Rambling About Rethinking My Life
3 years ago1,754 words
Should I get a job??
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Thoughts About DAWs?
3 years ago1,453 words
I wonder whether I should change which music composition software I use in the same way that I switched over from Flash to Unity!
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New PC - Should I Get This One??
3 years ago883 words
I've maybe decided on a new PC to buy... but I'm still quite clueless about this, so I'd like to hear your thoughts about whether I've made a good or terrible decision before confirming it!
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Weekly Update - Satisfying Length??
3 years ago1,198 words
Does this Mementome introducing the imaginary version of Savitr seem too long to you? And how long do you prefer RPGs to be??
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Mental Piranhas
3 years ago2,411 words
I'M MENTALLY ILL. Did you know that?? I might not have mentioned it hundreds of times before, I forget. It's been worse than usual this week, so here's some venting about money woes, and how toxic communities have and continue to exacerbate the social anxiety that's already prevented me from seizing so many opportunities...
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Weekly Update - Music Musings and a Potentially Problematic Nightmare
3 years ago1,990 words
Lots of indecisiveness this week about whether characters should wield musical instruments, and how Collie is portrayed in the new dream intro!
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