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Should I Become A Meditation Teacher??
7 months ago3,518 words
I went to a Mindfulness class thing, and afterwards was reminded of how even minor positive real-world experiences can turn my inner world from night to day. I got wondering what I could pursue to get this more often...
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Avoidance Tackling, Mindfulness Course
7 months ago771 words
I've been feeling like an embarrassing disappointment lately, so I decided to try to actually do something about it instead of just whining every week...
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Counselling Class - Week 4
9 months ago3,052 words
Another diary entry of sorts about my stumbling steps into the real world. I wish I'd been employed in my teens and twenties, so I wasn't such a poisonous pest of an alien now.
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Counselling Class 3 & What's Wrong With Me
9 months ago1,967 words
The third class of this Counselling skills course didn't go as badly as I dreaded it might, mostly due to revising my expectations. Also, a brief account of exactly why I've been trapped in a pit, and which mental conditions I believe I do or don't have.
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Counselling Course - Class 1
10 months ago3,951 words
I went to the first class of the Counselling course yesterday, which was the first time I've been around a group of strangers in many years. My experience was... mixed. Some disappointment, some hope, some anxious assumptions confirmed, while others were challenged.
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Artists vs AI; Counselling Course Concerns
10 months ago1,140 words
While AI can produce high-quality art quickly, in my experience, art's value comes from the creation process, at least in the sense of personal pride. Also, I've been losing sleep over doubts about the social dice roll I'll be making next week...
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A Plan For The Future?
1 year ago841 words
I finally feel like I have some vague idea of what kind of life might allow me to continue making stuff while paying the bills and not going (even more) insane??
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Counselling: Take... 3? 4? 5?
1 year ago2,534 words
I had my 'first' (of this latest run, at least) counselling session, at long last!! (I can't remember how many times I've been through this process in the past!)
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Head Pressure Thing - A Revelation
2 years ago794 words
I intended to post a Weekly Update today... but haven't yet finished what I wanted to do before it, largely due to a distracting feeling of pressure on the top of my head which has been a source of concern and anxiety for years. I think I've finally come to a realisation about what's causing it, though!!
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32; Growth
5 years ago - Edited 5 years ago2,089 words
It's my birthday today, so I felt like I should at least acknowledge that with a post. Today's mostly just business as usual - spending my time alone working on this game - but there's a background of miserableness because of some discouraging comments on the previous post, because they're right. I've been thinking about how I need to change as a person, but looking back on how I was just a couple of years ago, I'd say I've already come a long way!
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Same Old, Just Venting (EDITED)
5 years ago1,346 words
Have you ever liked any games because they dealt with deeper themes? Or is the appeal of games entirely about escapism?
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Sindrel Song - Glimmer's Life
6 years ago2,674 words
After posting
∞ the previous entry ∞ mere hours ago, I had a spark of inspiration, and I feel like I'm finally onto something with Sindrel Song's story!
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VR - More Impressions
7 years ago2,297 words
After playing around some more with my Oculus Rift, I'm amazed at the potential VR has to explore the nature of our perceptions... but I also wish I could just give up on the real world and live in a variety of virtual ones instead.
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Downs and Ups
7 years ago1,968 words
It was my first day of classes for the third year of university today. It's been a bit of a roller coaster. Crushing, suicidal despair, followed by a twinkling of hope.
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Connection and Hope
7 years ago501 words
I just wanted to write a quick update about how things are coming along with my housemates.
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